JOLYN CY♥
blessed (:

take me to the sky

11:06 PM I just had an urge to say that.. I guess I am the type of person who needs to be told to try and do things and yes I probably wouldn't have joined canoeing at all if not for people like Shiyin and Xinyuan who went trials and clinic with me, and Jeremy and Qitian for encouraging me to join, but I am in canoeing already and I'm really giving it everything I've got. I guess I've doubted myself several times and obviously people are highly skeptical about me but I really don't want to care about that and I want to do this. I really really want to do this.

I know some people believe in me so thank you..

Today is really full of someone day, I thought 3 strikes was bad enough but 5 is really horrible.. I am quite mixed up now, feeling guilty but angry too.

And I guess now is the period where at some point everyone has some insecurities, some lost of hope, some thoughts of giving up but we've come so far, I think we should try to do justice to all that we've put in, make our efforts worth it and really have no regrets.. I am here for you friends :(

Somehow, Save You by Kelly Clarkson fits into most of how I feel tonight.

Sigh cannot do work at all today. All I did was colour my new timetable. This is very very bad.