JOLYN CY♥
blessed (:

take me to the sky

12:54 AM Happy new year friends :) Thinking about 2010 is really scary, it will really be such a tough and trying year, I just hope we all have enough strength to pull through the year and make it a good year :/ Thinking about turning 18 is another weird thought, kind of explains why movies/songs are always about staying seventeen forever haha.

Anyway shall just update first. So on the 28th we had canoeing batch outing to watch Sherlock Holmes! Only 10 of us made it but I think it turned out alright somehow :) Sherlock Holmes was really full of old men sorry :( but it was pretty cool even though well you know those devices cannot exist o.o

Most of new year's eve was spent at Boon lay countdown stoning until the usual mad rush doing hair and makeup. I got a weird outfit again D: this time with 6m long sleeves (Y) Someone said I looked like a highlighter, someone said I looked malay oh wellz. It was the scariest/craziest runway I've done because the last 10minutes right before the show my hair was not touched, there was an extra piece of cloth to pin on my outfit and no one knew how except for the teacher and while being pinned I was suddenly told that I have to learn to gather my sleeves and throw them out on stage D: Definitely worst walk ever but who cares it is over!! Thank you vvm to my nice pretty partner Kelly, and Sungming for saving me otherwise I would have been lost in Boon lay. Rest of the night was spent with the family :)

Yesterday went to Amanda's house to study with Sihui and Yan! Her house is amazingggg there are stacks and stacks of chocolate and Haagen Dazs in the fridge!! Thank you for lending me your SAT book to read dear :D And the pizzaaaa. We played I have never... and I have ever... and Sihui lost both! Thus making herself the most happening yet the no lifer amongst us hahaha. Then we played hearts (This holiday is very rewarding I learnt to play bridge and hearts proficiently! :D) and Yan pwned us by shooting the moon at the last round killing all of us at the same time. But the next game I scored 0 three times in a row am quite shocked but very happy with myself hehe. Love you all :)

Today was first training of the year! Cold, wavy and lousy but it was training!! After that went to Fangyi's birthday party and then realised it was a combined party for Zhenjia too oops :/ It was quite fun, the sparklers and playing pig etc! Hope Fangyi liked the present, why Jan got so many babies D: And why everyone going for canoe marathong except for us D: D:

I am trying to reflect on the year but I think I will need more time... But reflecting on the holidays, well it was mostly spent on canoeing/with canoeists but definitely well-spent :D I guess I should have studied and I will probably regret horribly when school reopens but at least I'm starting! This holiday's trainings were probably the worst for me in the whole year... I destroyed my grip and vice versa (and the cycle is continuing now with the new grip too) and the blisters and raw flesh and little blood was really painful, plus getting sick so many times. Worse, my strokes were wrong all the time and it was so frustrating and disheartening, and they are wrong again now... And I think at one point in time, I really lost the feeling of rowing in the water, it just felt awkward and heavy... And all those crazy thoughts... I really hope things will get better there is really no time. And I will put in effort to make things better. I know I need to be stronger :( It's so horrible... But thank you you for listening to my crazy thoughts and encouraging me.

Then there's the thing that's been bothering me all year long. Even though I know that it will not work out (haha there's only 3% chance according to this movie) but I cannot make myself stop. I've found so many reasons but I can't convince myself.

This is so horrible... I must be fried toufu.

P.S. to my sick friends (why so many of you sick :( ) rest lots and get well soon! Hope I managed to entertain some of you today!