JOLYN CY♥
blessed (:

take me to the sky

8:38 PM Got sunburnt from dragonboating today T.T lobster red I swear so scary, I thought I'd be too dark to get sunburnt already heh. It was so tiring but quite fun, "Longer, deeper, harder, PULLER!' puller???? Hahaha funny coxswain. And today I realised coxswain is not the rudder man's name it is his POSITION OMG. Cause there were 2 dragonboats and the 97kg leader called both of the rudder men coxswain, really took me a while to realise :/

Friday went to watch Jennifer's Body with DISC! Didn't understand why the guys were so scared cause it wasn't scary at all, and Cheryl and Simin's screaming hahaha very entertaining company :D Stupid plot but the hovering makes up for everything hahaha. Let's watch 500 days of summer on dvd instead Simin!

Haha and Wednesday was Simin-ignores-us day and she failed by one hour, we are irresistable :) But the class really thought we fell out hahaha like Weijie's sms and the rest secretly asking.

Tuesday went for Fencing IHC anyhow poke poke poke and chiong and we won!!! :D Don't know how we did it but heh free ihc champion shirt and trophy so cool :D :D

OH YES I FORGOT TO MENTION. HELLO WORLD I AM 40KG!!!!!! As of Thursday :D Hopefully I still am 40kg though heh. Here's to 40kg and more kgs to come yay cheerssss. Speaking of 40kg, I can't believe the bet is still on :0 Breakfast lunch and dinner! Don't think it'll really happen though oh wellz, so surprising that you remembered and I forgot anyway haha. And apparently team owes me icecream :D

Was about to whine about how I really want to run again and I realised I forgot to go see the sinseh again shizzzzz. Promised myself to go yesterday ahhh.

Haha sometimes I really feel so unappreciated, then sometimes I feel so guilty because I don't do enough for some other stuff or people. So conflicting, I wish I knew how to balance it out better oh well.

Been thinking a lot this week about canoeing and training. Thinking about why I am here in the first place when clearly the odds are against me hah. And thinking about how to prove my worth and that I am strong enough, because there are so many people who doubt me until sometimes I doubt myself. But kind of decided that well there's only 5 months left and I should make the most out of it and train hard regardless of what happens in the end. Because even if a lot of people don't believe in me I know the girls team does and I cannot let them and myself down :/

Like a petal falling to the ground, a dreamer following his dream.