JOLYN CY♥
blessed (:

take me to the sky

11:40 PM It's another sucks post. Today was actually not so bad, until she had to make it go the other way round. Chinese was horrid because I did baozhangduhougan but bailaoshi never ever went through that type of duhougan? So my work was all based on whatever I could remember from jiang/the notes. English speech wasn't that bad actually? Although I totally forgot about my hand gestures & I knew I forgot but I just couldn't get myself to do them. Oh and the "statistics are like bikinis" or wtv question was the killer okay omg! I bet that was what Valerie meant by going to a higher band or something but I definitely didn't make it haha.

Anyway after speech I thought I should go for guides but I guess it was the worst mistake ever. I shall not think about it anymore. It was seriously unfair. But thank you batch mates who comforted/came over to talk to me, it was really sweet of you all even though you had no idea what was happening. You guys made me feel so much better especially since my usual clique of friends weren't there today. & thank you Jiaying too, for being with me even though I couldn't talk about it to you. & Pauline for buying me a drink, haha I love you dear! & Valerie Sin too :D Love you, thank you darling! I feel like such a loser now. I really am actually. I wonder how many of that I have accumulated already. To think I have already been trying so hard to work on it. It always doesn't pay off.

I went home feeling terrible with this migraine which wouldn't go away, so I slept for about an hour, & woke up having throat aches, blocked nose, coughing & all that. I hope they all get better after the weekends.

Oh & I know this sounds very ano, but I only had dinner the whole day, cold soup & cold rice & some cold meat & prawn. Maybe lack of food contributed to my horribleness. But I couldn't find time to eat today. I had three nike bottles of water & Pauline's drink though. I hope you know I actually eat a lot usually. Because bailaoshi always uses me for stupid examples of under-nourished (yingyangbuliang) girls. The other day she accused me of being health conscious and choosing not to eat fastfood. The week before I ate fastfood everyday. & I used to eat fastfood for my 2^nd lunch/hightea with xinyan & people, that was first half of the year when we had the time.

It's time to be a big girl now, and big girls don't cry.

This is getting pointless. Bye.