JOLYN CY♥
blessed (:

take me to the sky

11:02 PM I am a very very screwed up person right now.

today was super emo/sad/unhappy day for me i guess. was frustrated over many many things, hm.

& right now i realise i have piano, rs, street sales, lunch with ccy&people, shopping/dinner with valerie&xinyuan before concert & guitar&handbells' concert. & concert proved to be a very big thing to settle too:/ i really feel screwed.

anyway today was horrible, very. i feel like such a big sinner. no matter what i do, i still feel like i've let down/disappointed so many people? & when it's a choice between who to disappoint it makes me even worse.

even though i try to make things work, they dont notice. in fact they go against it, unknowingly. even when i try to make up for the holes in the fence i've made (& i know the story, there'll always be scars) it doesnt get any better. in the end i feel like i've made everything worse.

& i don't even have anyone to tell all these to.

this reminds me of sleepless emo night on last day of june again? i feel so terrible & stupid to feel emo la.

i tried to stand up, but you keep pushing me back down the same spot. sometimes i feel like i've had enough, enough of all of you putting me down with your words.

that sounded really horrible. you refers to alot anyway, so don't think it's you.

i hate myself for all these.