JOLYN CY♥
blessed (:

take me to the sky

4:48 PM like i think i post often enough and it's really not your business to care & tell me to post all the time. for one. i like have alot of work & i am stressed. get the word. go around complaining you are stressed but try looking around you. see who's really stressed & not making noise.

like stop sucking up to people & making yourself all high-ranked when you are not even capable of doing the job. like. face it. you take minutes or notes slow. like you're appreciating your handwriting which is like ugly. you cannot even arrange the points properly. so stop trying to be desperate. if you can't. you can't. & stop copying the people around you. like you make yourself look worse.

that was quite random. im feeling quite gloomy and dumb now.
i like typed alot of 'like's. grah.
my blog's not publishing properly even after like 10mins & that is pissing me off. i told myself to come home to do work but obviously i am not.

today's cooking was really quite nice. not the cooking part. which was like adding some random ingredient into cupcakes. cheese was cheesy. looked like pizza. the nice part was like just sitting down & talking to ms chionh (ah sth like that) about issues. she's really sweet. talking to us about her experiences & about phases in life that we will go through. like we will start to think that we are lesbians but being friendly with girls is just a passing phase in growing up so yea. but i think i'll nvr grow to love girls. ha. pointless.

my blog's still not publishing. screw it. i feel seriously moody now.
it's just ironic how alot of people seem to be there sometimes when you are happy or busy or whatever. yet when you are seriously feeling low & dumb no one is there. nobody just gets the message. i hate having the feeling that i feel like unbottling everything out but there's just no one to pour it all out to. everyone's either stuck in their own world or in someone else's. they just dont care. yet the person you wish most that would cared doesn't care. and i even have to act like i'm abit happy so that i dont sound too dao & bimbo to people. ugh.

forget it. i just need someone to talk to. like now.
& talk like not about boys or music or homework anymore.

im sick of everything.

i just love ccy for being there mostly to hear me talk & being concerned like no one else. thank you so much. i slept a little after 12.30 ytd so opps. sorry. haha.(:
& jonathan. for listening to me whine so much. sorry if im always so busy.
& qinying and yeesiang. for always bringing my spirit up although sometimes you dont even knw what im bothered about. i really miss seeing you guys. i dont even go home with yeesiang anymore.
& hweefang(: haha. thanks for helping me all the time in school.
& lester for going home with me usually every monday. although we always have to miss trains for each other. ha. thank me for escorting you to your haircut twice!
i really love you all so much(: thankyou.