JOLYN CY♥
blessed (:

take me to the sky

2:25 AM i realised i wasnt typing my main point in the previous post. -.- anyway. today i had alot of things to think about. at night la. cant really phrase it all out properly. :/ um. it's 2.30 now. gosh.

talk about other stuff first. comstuds. there's this cute anime that tchr's lett'g us watch every wk. one episode only la. n lastlast wk. i guess i sort of got upset with my groups or sth. like. i seriously had no confidence in making a horror movie. like. how the hell? but nvm. shouldnt be argueing over that again. just wanna thank longchuan for that consoling smile although she isnt in my group but she saw that i was typing aimlessly on the imac or sth. thanks so much. it was super encouraging la. so now im my comstuds movie group. im just this dumb camerawoman. without any role. i suck. why cant we just do some dumb romance or comedy thing anyway.

speechndrama's quite boring but fun nowadays. me n thashi were supposed to be act'g as this couple n i think i sort of over-acted. but people still laughed alot at my actions so i guess its not that bad.

sometimes i think the simplest things are romantic. and people now arent. gah. i dont even know what im talking about. i just feel like crying all the sudden. over nothing. its weird. hm.

you think you are sacrificing yourself. but you dont get it. what if you really stand a chance. and by sounding as if you are letting n sacrificing yourself. i dont think it'll last long at all. stop it. just fight if u want. i dont care. i dont wanna feel like this third person interferring. and how the hell do i accept if i never get asked. stop it.

my mum started this talk about me using the phone alot and she's restrict'g to me talk'g 30mins everyday. i can like DIE with that restriction but nvm. shall try. dont think it will last long anw.(: and like it isnt jontan's fault. ha.

haha. i think im forget'g 2 people alrdy(: so that's good. it feels weird when he doesnt msg you anymore. but at least the teasing stops. and the weirdness is stopping too.
thankyou for talk'g to me so often. for keeping me company all the time. i feel lonely when im alone now. i guess truths are not meant to be told. but conveyed somehow. through actions.

haha. i wonder how twits get together as couples sometimes.

i wanted to talk about sth else but ended up talking about this. again. gah. nvm. i guess romance only exsists in fairytales.comics.and teevees. reality suxors.