JOLYN CY♥
blessed (:

take me to the sky

12:40 PM i guess this may be one of the first a little emo post in a longlong tym. i guess i just feel like writ'g out what i've been keep'g inside for a long tym or sth. ahhwadever.

valentine day's com'g! like. ohno. haha. i rmb i was like writ'g all over my schhandbk randomly with hweefang about b'days n celeb days n all that. then like on v'day there was this urgent note; get bf b4 v'day! which was really just a joke la. but now v'day's com'g n i seriously feel about sad about it. nvm. at least it wun be as bad as last yr i guess.

ahh. shall talk about happy stuff first. typ'g sad stuff makes me feel so sad. gaah. (X
ytd; went out to celeb cyjie's b'day(: we watched fun with dick n jane which was abit bor'g n unrealistic but nvm. still quite nice. it was supposed to be a comedy but somehow i didnt laugh as much as everyone else did. like. in the cinema i saw so many couples. i looked at them. they stared at me. then i was like
cy[me!] whispers; qy! why so many couples here today..is this some kind of loveydovey show?
qy whispers; huh. i dunno la. oii. v'day coming la!
cy whispers; OHYEAHOR. i totally forgot. ohgosh. i no valentine! SO SAD. LOL.
qy laughs.

ahh. then randomly saw this couple. the girl was like hugg'g this super huge bearbear! like TEDDYBEAR. so jealous. haha. then we went on to take neoprints. twice. cause the first tym cyjie forgot to wear the cap me n lester bought for her! buy'g that cap was such a sarcrifice can. ahhgaah. anw. so glad ytd didnt reallaye pass by snsshop. cause i wasnt feel'g very gay as usual. not mak'g sense but heck. last day ov work should be quite a happy thing.

then had to rush home cause expect'g guests at home. they all turned up so late in the end luh. had quite abit of fun. yinghui is such a suan-er man! like. he's the oldest among the kiddies n he's sec2 too. so i guess we can get along abit. like when i was play'g this game he would be suan'g me like hell. everyth'g also my fault la. eek. MEANO. haha. was talk'g alot on the phone with jontan despite the number of guests. bored i guess. n jontan was being very weird. ahh. nvm.

today's sunday! n i didnt go out with pie. ahhsorry. but i dont think pie'll care much anymore. meet'g xuefang later to PAY MONEY. like so miser right. haha.

okay. ahh. the emo stuff now? eek. maybe.

v'day is coming. gah. nth much to do with me anw. like. i just hate this feel'g la. like someone chats alot with u. sms you like everyday. n stuff. then someone suddenly just stops. like as if someone heckcares about u alrdy. like everything nice n perfect just stops there. after ur favourite day i suppose. haha. i guess im just such an idiot at tyms. n someone else. like. used to call u alot n stuff. then doesnt for a longlong period of tym. then suddenly calls u alot again. n yea. blah. i dunno. i just feel weird okay. i mean. i can get along with people n stuff. until they ask a question.that question. that i dunno how to answer. which always makes ppl giveup on me i guess. like the bird. so. sometyms i just wish that question nvr comes up. yet sometyms u really want that question. but u just dunno the answer to the question. or u just dunno how to answer the question. or like. someth'gs always get involved n u get totally messed up. im sorry. im seriously not mak'g any sense. i just dont like all this. like. im not that kind of girl who knows how to express herself or sth. ahh. i guess that is why everyone gave up on me huh. ohwell. fine(: i guess i shouldnt really care much about this cause i shouldnt. i just get so sad over stuff sometyms. n i just miss some stuff. ahhHECK. im really not mak'g sense okay. maybe i should just forget everyth'g. but like. it took me more than half a yr to forget leonard. n im try'g to forget someone else n now i hav 2someone else to forget about. ohgosh. like. just give me memory loss man.