JOLYN CY♥
blessed (:

take me to the sky

4:32 PM ohwell. sometyms i feel in this very depressed mood somtyms i laugh alot. weird. anw. here's a sorry to mschong too. i realise i laugh alot uncontrollably n unstoppably dur'g her lesson too. juanmin's influence(: haha. n hweefang's.(X

im fretting over alot of stuff now when im not supposed to. im horribly underweight. like. my bmi is only. 70% or sth??! accord'g to mrs anis. ohwell. violet better not know this. (X i need fats. in the right places. like. my feet's not nice. it needs more fats to cover the veins. LOL. crap. cny's com'g n i hav to get alot of pimples now. this is so not good. lester says my specs look weird la. i think its just. UNIQUE(: HEH. dun u think so?. lol. maybe i'll wear contacts on friday. so that i dun look weird when i get back to pcs. maybe. hard lens are so irritat'g. ohwell.

typing like this is not easy. im trying. note. TRYING. to write alot of pcs n rgs ppl cny postcards. kind of dumb. but im dumb. (: anw. leonard's birthday's on cny. n hongkai's birthday is on cny day2 too. so i dunno if i should get them presents n give them on cny celeb. IF they go to pcs that is. ohwell. but i dunno wad to get for them la. i feel like share-cost'g again. but it just feels so unsincere sometyms. argh. im think'g of gett'g leo this dumb ornament that totally doesnt suit him. n i've no idea wad to get for hk. some dumb sports stuff i guess. aiya. i dunno la.

i wanna GO OUT. was ask'g qy maybe we [as in.some of 6a'o4 ppl.] could go for a movie after visit'g pcs. maybe. argh. i dunno anything. i dun feel like call'g ppl to go to pcs so. i'll just hav to depend on their enthuu-ness to go back. highly unreliable.HEE.

this part onward's crap.
i dunno how i feel.

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kelvin jnr started to talk to me. was talking to him about how he shouldnt get mad with his mum n stuff. ohwell. i feel good all of the sudden(: n kelvin seems to hav chilled. yay.-
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i dunno how i feel. sometimes i feel so uber hyper. then the nxt minute everything turns around. ohwell.forget it.

cheer up thashi(:

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ahh. im back again. i so should be doing work. cause i've been slack'g.ALOT. when is tingxie? eek. confused. i was randomly reading msg history(s) which is lame but i learnt alot of stuff. haha. like how dumb i was last tym. totally. i realise today's xuefang's birthday. opps. haha. shall do a birthday thing later.

went out with mum ytd. i still cannot find a pair of shoes at all. maybe my expectations are too high. ohwells. mum bought this ORANGE top which is uber cool. n i think i can wear it too. orange! <3333s! haha. even my sis got her shoes already. shudders. eek.

started think'g about things. sometimes i wish i couldnt love. then i wouldnt be so weird now. it seems ironic how someone pays so much attention to u sometyms. then doesnt care a hoot about u the nxt second. it's scary to love someone i guess.

i guess im just afraid to end up like how i ended up years ago. or like her. i dun need another heartbreak or sth. should i hit leo on the head for mak'g me phobia-tic about sth? he doesnt care larh. anw. it just feels weird how he plays with her feelings. then when she feels in love with him n tells him. he says its impossible. but afterall. i dunno exactly wad happened so heck. im just plain afraid. maybe i shouldnt love at all.(:

now im seriously consider'g whether to not go back to pcs. but i want to. but i dun want to. its just weird la. hmm. maybe i should see who's gg back. n if i dun go back. it's a lil letting down on my jnrs. especially jorene i think. gees. maybe it's just that i dun wanna see some ppl. or maybe i just dun wanna think about some stuff. or maybe i dun want ppl to say what they talked about years ago n let that bother me again. im weird.

moral of the story; im weird.

birthdaygreet'gs(:

happybirthdayto;
MY DADDY(:
MY SISTER(X
LONGCHUAN
XUEfANG
LEONARD
HONGKAI
SISWO
JINGXIAN
ZAN
CELINE
ROKHINI.
whoever i forgot.sorry.
my memory isnt as great as b4.

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