JOLYN CY♥
blessed (:

take me to the sky

3:01 PM anw.
i've finally completed the virus scan.
there were 600+ infections as usual.
but i got rid of most of them.
n my laptop is reallaye unlaggish now. (:
heehees.

im reallaye feeling quite disappointed n pissed with people.
nah. its not u.
dun think most ov u will knw who she is.

blahs.
basically i hate liars.
hate copy-kittens.
hate promise-breakers.
n hate 'fren-snatchers'
or wadever.
dunno how lame this may sound but heck.
im just gonna make myself all childish n complainy.

well. fine.
she said/boasted that she was going to rebond her hair once.
she nvr did. i guess it was the rebonding trend that made her say such dumb stuff.
she said she was going to get a nice n new haircut n everything at orchard.
she nvr did. must hav been the sudden number of haircuts around her which tempted her.
she said we're going to escape with her frens. so that i could get to know her frens.
she nvr did. blah.
she said she'll go out with me to wherever n wadever.
she nvr did. n she always has sth on last minute-ly. but nvm.
but her 'sth on' last minutely seems to be a lie somehow.
otherwise if she has sth on. why do i see her online.
at such a time. when she's supposed to hav sth on.
heck.
and if u're doing dedications like someone else.
or doing random facts for eg. like someone else.
at least bother to credit that person.
dun 'copy' without crediting.
that is so unethical.
im so sick n tired of being let down again n again.
im not going to care anymore.

another thing.
i added this person randomly on friendster.
n just like. sort of made frens.
then i guess some people's either jealous or wadever.
so she adds him too.
and introduces herself.
that is so thick.

n another thing.
i finally realise i look quite okay without specs n with tied up hair.
so i go out like that. take neos. photos.
n post them as my dp.
i guess some people's jealous or just unhappy.
so she tells me.
when i go out with her.
dun wear my contacts.
i told her my mum'll force me to.
she said wear my contacts out from home.
then when we take neos dun wear contacts.
then wear back my contacts when im going home.
omg.
that is like. such a great sign that she doesnt want me to look nicer.
n wad's the excuse for all that?
she's afraid ov my big eyes like yeesiang.
like. wadever.
yeesiang was playing n fooling around with me.
heck.
if u feel inferior when i look somehow a lil better than u.
tell me n i'll dress ugly.
i dun need lies n dumb excuses.

shall go onto happier n lighter stuff.
my pink tanktop's ruined.
got stained n the stain wun go off.
joy to some people.
but nvm.
mum's going to buy me new ones.
or the bum pink tanktop i liked. (:
but bum's one isnt hot pink.
sighs.

and i've not sold my tickets.
im so dead.
n i've not found any dress to wear.
dead again.
i think i'll prolly wear my denim dress.
or some tee plus mini skirt.
i despo-ed-ly want a long skirt.
it would look so much better.
blahs.

concert's tmr.
im feeling dead.

list of things to do today;
[#o1] practise piano piece for concert
[#02] practise other pieces
[#03] sell tickets; start calling up people
[#04] try to wear contacts; start to hurt alot nowadays
[#05] make more frens. (:
[#06] bathe n apply moisturizer
[#07] try to get rid of pimples

blah.
byee. (: