JOLYN CY♥
blessed (:

take me to the sky

5:23 PM sighs. shall update a lil.

BIRTHDAYS.

october BABYS.
13th - yanshan
14th - qinyan
15th - rach
16th - danny

my greatest wishes to all of euu.
may your deepest wishes and truest dreams come true.
may life forever be filled with laughter and happiness for u. unlike mine.

so ytd's lit was horrible.
couldnt think of wad to write.
although what they asked us to write was relatively direct.
but. just not much to write.
hmm. then recently there was a theft in class.
so on tuesday we got released late from rs AND had to stay back for mdm thern to scold us.
she was like. reprimanding us on theft and all that.
and saying how we dun take care of our frens' belongings.
but. i mean. if it all happened when no one was aware or when everyone was busy doing their own stuff.
then its kinda tough on us la.
sorta.
anyway. so she went loudsoftloudsoft.
i guess we disappointed her. 2 thefts. 6bucks and a whole wallet with 60bucks.
but. nvm.
anyway. then she started asking for clues and all that.
crapped. didnt stay back on friday so i dun hav a clue.
we were let off finally at 3.50 or sth.
then today.
she told us to write a reflection
and write down who we suspect and all that.
its starting to get a little tight and she still seemed angry.
blah.
i reli dunno wad to say.
hmm. recently stuff hav been happening.
especially friendships.
i guess true friendship is hard to come by.
i'll always love QINYING and JIE.
and KOR and DAGE.
and everyone else who has been true to me.
hmm. i think dage and kor isnt exactly true to me.
but i still love them all the same.
hmm. dage chatted for like. a few mins ytd. but today he dao-ed me.
so nvm. ha.

lets talk about friendship.
hmm. sometimes i feel like im all alone in class.
sometimes ppl come and give me warmth.
being cold and warm at times is tough.
i'd rather stay cold all the time.
sometimes. i feel like i dun want friends.
i dunno why.
ahh wells.
hmm. i guess life's just supposed to be like this.

now family matters
recently my sis has found a great hobby of pissing me off.
its like. im reli stressed up and depressed at this time of the year.
with exams. problems in sch and all that.
and she just doesnt understand me.
i dun mind her minding her own business but.
does she relireli love me screaming and shouting at her all day long.
i just shouted at her like. 10mins ago.
i DUN like to shout at her.
but she just doesnt listens.
and wants to pokk into everything i do.
why is she always like this.
then my parents.
yea. recently they hav been bringing up the topic of 'daigou' alot.
and coincidentally.
we just covered the chinese txtbk chapter on daigou.
and i just want to try and talk it all out with them.
about what's happening in class. in my life and everything.
they just dun understand.
and shut me up to go away.
its hurting. and i dun like it..
cant they just spare a few moments to hear me talk?
when i dun talk ppl complain that im anti-social.
when i do talk. ppl ask me to shut up.
i just dun know when the right moments are to talk huhs.

then there's studies.
eoys are coming.
and im relireli scared.
its not like im doing very good already.
and i hav to fail my wgp anthology cuz of my printer and handing it one day late.
50% off. mr connolly can get reli fierce.
sighs.

shall start talking bad stuff now.
hmm. started talking to yanshan abit when i go home.
with yunxi too.
then whenever casslyn comes in.
i just dun feel like talking anemore.
she just gives me an isolation look.
and then talks to them. and leaves me out.
wad philosophy term is that.
mmm. marginalisation or alienation.
wadever.
i'll just feel extra-ed.
and the kinda impression casslyn gives me now is like.
she gives ppl that cute.innocent.friendly first impression.
then when u get to know her more.
she starts to take advantage of u.
but somehow. she wun do anything for u.
then. when u start to get irritated.
she pushes u away.
and gets close to your frens.
and then isolate u away from them.
but she'll always look sweet to everyone else.
disgusting.
hmm.
wadever.
i dun want frens.
i dun need frens.
just leave me alone.
if u arent sincere in the first place.
dun try to get close to me.
then break my heart.
i dun need more stabs.
i dun want anymore deceivings.
gaah. im bored.
love ppl who are sincere.
love steph.kunni.shiyin.esther.qinyan.and my pcs budds.

dunno why. felt veryvery pukish today.
since the morning.
couldnt sleep in the car.
went to sch with a tummyache.pukish feeling.sleepyness.and everything sad.
so decided to forfeit history extra lesson today.
hopefully i didnt miss out too much.

kk. shant crap.
there's aesthetics tmr!
chachacha. gonna watch shall we dance.
philo pt due tmr!
sighs.
BYE. <33