JOLYN CY♥
blessed (:

take me to the sky

6:15 PM haha.
decided to post again.
im posting 2 posts in an hour. >.<''
great.
haha. im so slacker.
anw. fyi. the time on my posts are. NOT accurate.
yes. considering to get them off.
blah.
that's not the main thing about this post.

anyways.
GUESS WAD SHIYIN??!
why shiyin? i duno. =.=''
i've decided to forget about. HIM.
stuff.umm.yea
haha. i dunno.
i just started looking at stuff.
like friendster profiles.
then just leafed through la.
yea. then started to see some stuff.
[i know im getting confusing and weird.butnvm.]
then.
i just saw some stuff.
i dunno. then i just started asking myself.
alot of questions.
why am i stuck in this.
sadness or depression or wadever.
when i should or can be laughing out loud truely.
from my heart.
then i got my answer.
but i dun feel like facing up to the answer.
i cant believe ive been like this for a whole year.
or maybe about 9months.
just becuz of .well. one single guy.
yes.
nvm. anyway. yea.
i just dunno why.
i know no matter what.
it's all over and it'll nvr happen again.
some ppl dun ever want history to repeat itself.
yet im helplessly wishing for a miracle.
which has proven. will nvr happen.
then i saw how happie others or.he.was.
with. other people. other girls.other chiobus.
then i started to feel reli pathetic myself.
i started to think that i was relireli dumb.
but yet i know.
i may hav decided. to somehow forget.
but somehow. i cannot forget. and i wun want to forget.
there's just this force within me that is unwilling to let go.
pathetic.
then yea. i suppose now. he's fallen in love for alot more people already.
lala.
i shall try to be happie for him.
i feel so lonely again suddenly.
like no one's going to stay by my side.
no one's going to care about me.
i told myself to learn to be lonely.
but yet i just cant.
i dunno.
i feel reli bad and sad.
at least leeying has leonard yea.
lol. i feel crap. sighs.
such a drastic change within an hour.
my previous post was so crap and dumb.
and now this post. so depressing and dumb as well.
well. i shall stop here.
dun feel like letting the whole wide world know fully how i feel.
shall keep some within me. (:
haha. wad crap. bye. ):