JOLYN CY♥
blessed (:

take me to the sky

10:34 PM yes i can.
i wanna cry.
just let everything out.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
yes.
that feels no better.
sighs.
okae.
so i din get chosen for prefect-in-training.
hahahas.
congrats xinqi claire and rachel.
haha.
i dunno why.
i told myself not to get my hopes to high.
so that i wouldn't be upset.
and i told myself that i wouldn't want to be a pit.
but.
i just feel sad all the same.
and somehow.
even worse.
sighs.
I WAN MY DOLPHIN SNOWGLOBE.
not tt i dun hav it with me now but.
i wish i could hugg the person who gave me that.
and just. face that person. n cry in front of him.
i just wanna tell him how tough life has been.
i just want to see him.
that's all.
poohbear cannot be a replacement for him.
nono.
ahh.
i feel like hugg alot of ppl.
kunni.jie.qinying.lester.leonard.hk.jontan.yanshan.steph.junhao senior.which is impossible.
ahhhh.
i promised mr goh i will be sad for todae and tmr onli. but i think. i think i'll extend another dae. haha.
sorry mr goh.
i guess. this defeat will make my 2nd piano piece- the sad one. even more sad huhs.
ahh wells.
i din expect myself to be such a failure to have failed 3 interviews in a row.
jtcy. u r pathetic.
whaha.
so far. the onli happie smiley i can show is. that panda who laughs and drops onto the ground.
its like. fake laughing till u feel so sad. u drop onto the ground crying.
whahaha.
u know wad.
i admire junhao senior now.
he is like. a councilor. n vball c div captain.
whaha.
i'll nvr be able to achieve so much de.
whahaha.
i feel so shi bai.
bleah.
but nvm.
after wednesdae.
i shall believe in kunni's word.
its God's way.
God's planning.
maybe. He wants me to learn how to be stronger yea?
hahaha.
maybe He just wants me to accept defeat and go on with life.
yes. i shall. after wed.
i will have faith.
thank you kunni.
really big thanks.
you made me stronger.
you made me believe in God.
i love u kunni.
but still.
im sad. haha.
sighs. i wanna learn how to stand. but.
can i? ):