JOLYN CY♥
blessed (:

take me to the sky

10:09 PM haiyar. hav been super lazy to blog. n too busy as well. cuz. i dunno. bad time management? or juz. everytime i feel like writing something here. it's either. the wrong timing. [like. if im in sch] or. juz no time. ha. im reli tired. physically. n mentally. like. im nt rlei lacking alot of sleep or anithing. but. i juz feel tt wave of fatigue. im tired. im tired of all the false-ness around me. tired of all those competition for popularity. tired of trying my best. tired of the people around me. who seem to be so greaat. yet tt bad. ms tay was probably rite. one should b more.cynid. sth liddat. everyone has a motive in wadeva they do. no one is .. as pure as b4. no one is as nice as when they were.

im still furious with casslyn. sometimes. i juz feel like. asking her rite in the face. wad did i do wrong. i juz dun gettid. even qinyan thinks the same as me. casslyn is like. a parasite?. someone. who sticks to you. onli when u r useful to her. someone. who juz runs to anione who's popular. from alethea. to yanshan. to anione possible. learning their specialities. like. their slang. their habits. bleah. tt's so copycat. i juz cannot believe i stand-ed her for so long. from pri sch till now. im reli tired liao lar. now in frnt of yanshan n qinyan. she seems to tok alot. but if they reli notice. she's juz toking to them. she nvr reli. looked at me. joked at me. or even. include me at all. i feel isolated lar. its like. in a busy street with everyone u noe. but. no one juz cares bout u. like. u're juz an ant with a bunch of elephants. aiyar.

then. im starting to find some ppl like. abit show show. like. show off yea. like. they like to exaggerate actions. show off wad they can do. make ppl notice them. yeah. i think its kinda dumb lar. like. if u're tt despo for attention. go circus perform lar. shant elaborate. pri sch n sec sch ppl oso liddat. reli disappointed lar.

then. recently posted on the 6a msn grp about class gathering. cuz previous discussion about class gathering they wanted near the nat dae. so i juz posted to like. tell ppl. hello. nat dae coming. gathering?.. then like. hardly anione replied lars. like. why can ppl reply rapidly to other recent threads/discussions. why can the previous class gathering get like. 20+ replies. but. they juz dun care bout wad i sae? its either like. im like. so not important. juz another fry. no one cares wad i hav to sae. or. i reli tt SHI BAI. or juz tt. ppl like those showshow ppl. who joke. show ppl wad great things they can come out with. instead of like. lame. introverts like. ME?. im reli sick of everything. if they reli nt interested. or reli dun wan some gathering. is like. replying straight forward NO. GO DIE. tt difficult? ppl juz dun seem to care. haa. i've had enough of secondary sch life. trying to find some. happiness [?] from my pri sch mates. n. like. i get the same treatment from everyone. m i reli. reli tt. failure kiddo. i guess. everyone has the greatest n most uniformed eyesight. ha. wad crap. I GIVE UP. i'll juz stick to being by myself. onli me. lonely me. n nth else. i dunno. why.

its a dam cold night. trying to figure out this life. won't you take me by the hand. take me somewhere new. i dun noe who u are. but. im with you. i juz. wanna get rid of everything. live like a normal person. wadeva.

the ending is alwaes the best. cuz. every ending is death. ha.