JOLYN CY♥
blessed (:

take me to the sky

5:30 PM hmms. yeah. todae morning till afternoon was a total wreckk. yeah. i so totally flunked. at my piano. mock test. hmmms. n yuanyang can plae so far better than me. hmms. im dead meat. haaaaaaa. im trying to laugh??..ewws. ha. im so pathetic. YUANYANG. u're gud lar. muz hav more self confidence cann. yeah. u sure passed rite? sms me how much i got. siaos. u pass i wun dare to sae my marks one larrs. kk. then. u reli can do it lar. then. i cant. ha. kk. im pathetic yuanyang. u rawwk. kk. u gettit. yeah. so stop being soo low esteem. cuz u r like. loads better than me lar. ha. u rawk sis! ha. gogogo sis. u pass n fail during exam i oso happie liao lars. haa.

kk. so i had the mock test 1 wk later. but it din reli make a difference. cuz like. i still din hav the time. ha. im reli sad lars. ha. but. still trying to smile? ewws. i cant believe i failed. nono. i can believe it. but i juz dun wanna face it lars. hahaa. tt's PATHETIC. kk. YUANYANG. SIS. U RAWKK. yeah. i so freaked out during the mock test. i forgot everything lar. then my fingers were like. shivering. hmms. tt's bad. cuz everything turned out wrong. especially. no. everythin jiu dui le. i juz blanked out. i forgot my dynamics. i totally went emotion-less. ha. hmms. so as usual. i broke down la. cried lors. ha. lameeee. i hate it when i cry. especially during piano. but i juz cant help it lar. like. i noe im bad. n my exam's in 2 wk's time? i think tchr was seriously considering about getting me to back out from the examination. onli tt i cried so she din sae anithing. but frm her tone. i noe she knew tt i wouldnt do gud for the exam. she was i think. expecting 100-110 marks onli. ha. if i ever pass. hmms. tts pathetic. i cant stand myself.

then yuanyang came. n then i tried to keep my head awae frm him. so tt he wouldnt see tt i cried. but he seriously play well. hmm. tt's gud. go sis..ha. k. then. i juz freaked out after i got out. i almost cried again. when my mother was interrogating me. ha. n im going to cry soon. now. if there weren't yanshan n casslyn in the rm..

cont. later. hmmmms. rite now in yanshan's hse. learning the cher's dae dance. hmm. khunnie. im sorry. for wadeva we've done...yeah..dun get too..upset?..i dunno..sorry.

kk. then. yeah. before tt fang yi n amanda oh came. n then the 'training' was a little tough. then like. around 5. they went. n then casslyn soon came. then wad happen? everything SLACKED. yeah. otherwise why would i be posting rite noww? cuz with casslyn. its alwaes slacking time. its bad lar. u cant focus on proj.[if meeting for proj.] n u cant do anithing in summary. yeah. n some ppl juz likes to sa jiao. hmms. n i cant believe some ppl actually sae tt their hungry so loudly. so tt the owner can get some food. some ppl. are JUZ too THICKSKINNED. hmms. yanshan. u mentioned about ppl being thickskinned rite. i think tt tt person is a whole lot more thickskinned than other ppl. u mentioned. hmms. yeah. so. khunnie is great cans. hmm. juz tt she likes to express her thoughts. like me. on the blog. hmms. kk. wadeva. hmms. they're chorographing some more parts in the dance. i guess. with casslyn the 'dance pro'. they dun reli need me to like. help with anithing. after all. they're the ones who can dance. can show n everything wad. im onli tt stiff gal. hmm. wadeva. cont. later. dun reli like to type here. when anitime. anione can juz peek behind me like a bad n seasoned eaves-peeker.

kk. back. to cont. newaes. i left quite soon. like. around 6. ha. great. cant seem to stand some ppl nemore. thanks dad. for coming so on time. ((: din reli felt like joining the dance in the first place. din wan to face some stuckup brat again. for the utmost times.

so i went to my cousin's hse. hmms. they juz came back frm holidae in hongkong. so nice. haha. the food pics tt they took were so dam rawwker. i waanna eat. hmms. newaes. my brother n sister seemed to get a whole lot more gifts than i do. nt tt i actually care tt much. but. the difference is overwhelmingg. like. i get 1 shirt. n 1 pair of slippers. while. my brother got at least 4-5 tees n my sis. at least 4 tees plus a bag. hmms. tt's so fair. then the finally realise tt i din get anithing. much. then they started to leaf throught the pile of my sista's clothes. trying to finfd some suitable for me. then they took this tee too small for my sis. n my aunt actually took a MADAGASCAR tee for me. i was like. OMG. tt is sooo for my sister. NOT me. i DUN wear cartoon tees. nono. normal tees are ok. but. MADAGASCAR. cartoon. no thanks. then she was like scoolding me.. wad. "dun try to act mature lar." like. im ntt. but cartoon. is so for p5? or p6? hmm. so in the end. i guess i was a little pissed. but newae. i dun get pissed at my aunt for long. so yea. then called my overseas cousin. hmms. yea.

n like. who would wanna act mature now. the WHOLE world. or should i sae. the whole teenagers out there. all girls are like. trying to act cute. they give that dumbb-ed smile on the camera at some magnificant angle tt hides their flaws. snap snap. ewws. i so despise all tt act cute-ing. its dam fake. but all guuys seem to fall for it. hmms. wadeva. like. lets take andrea for eg. she used to b such a great bball player. with attitude n all tt. now u see her pics on msn n friendster. its DAM act cute. she smiles exactly like the rest. i mean. isnt it abit tiring to see those clique-d and exactly-the-same smile? i guess guys juz lurve it. ewws. n her friendster name used to b those cool names. related to bball or sports. now? eww. forget it. i guess its juz. some passing stages. sickk. n ppl used to juz tok in normal or broken or shortformed english. its a whole lot worse now. there's act cute-ed lang. 'worxx' 'lurbb' 'iishh' 'fer' 'yo0' 'euu' ewws. grrr. yuckks. kk

statement of the dae? hmms. girls are so act-cute-ed and VAIN.

i guess its juz girl's nature huh.