Friday, June 03, 2005
10:15 PM
lets see..tok bout tuition todae..tuition started liaoz.ha. i dunno wad happen to me todae in ma n sc tuition la. juz felt veri sadd n depressed? i dunno. had this sudden wave of darkness n i juz felt sadd la. i dunno. sad jiu sad. then todae did maths mostly. oh yah. oso got new fren. millicent. so cutee name. haha. she oso another pro person. pro in sports n studies. haha. i muz b the onli one in the whole class tt practically cant do sports at all.. pathetic me. yepp. then wen doin those sums i juz felt so depresssed la. smhow. everything floated pass me like nth. couldnt think straight. then cher give algebra questions. sch maths syllybus nt doin algebra till last 2 chaps. near yr end bah. i dunno. so ov cuz i oso veri confused by algebra la. like. i duno how to do..stuck.mental block. i dunno..!!!!!!!.... argh. feeling dumb n frustrated n everything. i duno. stupid me. wadeva. dumb gal is me. i dunno lar. juz felt so sad n frustrated. tmr sposed to celeb bdae with 6a-ers. but now. feel so sadd tt i du wanna think bout it le. i dunno wad's wrong with me larr. dumb gal. then smhow. i dunno. i owaes hav this insignificant n unsightly n juz transparent feeling.like.no one reli noes me.or anithing. i dunno. i hav no idea wad im thinkin bout. the onli cher tt reli noes me would probably b miss phua. but she transfer to chongfu as vice principal le. cannot see her. foreva..? most probably... so todae. i duno. i juz felt so insignificant n transparent to cher n everyone else. i duno la. like no one reli cares. no one reli wanna noe u. i dunno. i guessed i looked kinda sadd. i dunno. but i tried to hide tt emotion awae frm my face. onli wen im doing the sums then let out. cuz everyone oso doing theirs mah. hah. i muz hav looked veri bu shuang or sth. i dunno. nxt fridae my b'dae le. cher going to give test. ahh. haha. i dunno. sure get worse than the new pro[millicent] n tt maths olympic guyy[alvin]. sure de. dun need to think bout it. i so totally am going to fail the both of them. smhow. i dunno. im feeling reli lost now. for no reason. i juz feel like..this empty shell. this gal without characteristics or personality. this gal without ani soul. juz this robot without a heart. haha. alien. rmb nots, kl? in last yr's class they called me alien.smhow. i dunno. =( i'll show how i reli feel. for once.
newaes. mr goh. u rawkk. haha. as usual. :)) jiayou. hope the test nxt wk wun b too badd. hopefully. n millicent reli cutee. haha. i dunno.. =(
Lets see how many times i hav to retype this post out. dumbdumb blogger isnt working well..my blog posts come out half wae..eepz. i'll rmb to copy this time. so wun re write. re wrote dunno how many times le..2-3? yeahh.
