JOLYN CY♥
blessed (:

take me to the sky

11:20 AM im sick n tired of everything lar. stuck at home everydae. all the movies n everything alwaes cancelled last min. n then there's the ndp rehearsal..ahhhhhhhhh. stupid la..

now every single dae. im staring out of the window looking at the little kids plaeing at the playground. occasionally i go downstairs to walk around. then wen i see ppl riding bikes, plaeing street soccer or bball..feel so jealous la. they hav frenz with them..n im juz all alone. stupidd. then i keep listenning to sadd songs all the time. crazy me..

ahh. realised tt cbox's working again. n i actually changed to tag-board. eww. i'll go find the old code for cbox..in my old lappie. n im nt using my usual lappie!..sth wrong with it. oO. i din backup anithing at all. all my things will b gone if it really crashes..shit..argh. everything's wrongg.

then there's the ndp rehearsal. i really hav no idea wad im up to. mebe i shouldnt hav made tt extra last min prac tmr..cuz. im starting to regret it man..if i reli din then. mebe there wouldnt b so many ppl suaning me n cursing under their breath n pissed off with me. like. i reli dunno la. the last 2 pracs reli din go veri.. well..progressive. dunno la.. so i sorta implanted a last min de..cuz..20th we hav another rehearsal. 21st we hav a eng supplement. 23th we hav a geog trip. then. its a busy week enough n the last wk of the hols le. after the holidaes ppl will hav 3rd lang. cca. tuition. wadeva-nots. then it'll be worse la. i dunno. i sorta discussed with khunnie de.. so i made a last min one yesterdae for tmr. i guess its reli too late..AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. but those ppl juz dun feel like putting themselves in my shoes a little. like. they KNOW tt they havent done much rehearsing. the KNOW tt alot of rehearsing is needed. they KNOW tt we dun hav much time..so WHY cant they juz try to understand a little. n the in charges dun seem to like. want to plan ani extra rehearsals. i guess it was a little extra on my part but..there's no time le.. i dunno la. then this person seems to be against me or sth. suddenly added everyone online into a conversation. n then makes me tell everyone together. i planned to call everyone 1 by 1. cant she juz STOP MAKING THINGS DIFFICULT FOR ME. then after i said my piece she started going AGAINST me. like. she's oso an in-charge lar. cant she juz co operate or sthhhh. pissedd. urghh. i dunno lar. lesson learnt. moral of the story? NVR NVR NVR do anithing last min. even if it means helping ur class a little tinny weeeny bit. hmph. juz let them hav tt 1 last rehearsal on the 20th lar. i dunno la. pissifying ppl. i wish i reli did get into dhs instead. however AP they r. cant b compared man. hmph.