JOLYN CY♥
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take me to the sky

6:07 PM hmm. wanted to talk bout yesterdae de. but cant rmb anithing le..erm.

oh yah. ytd in sch. new hist tcher. i guess she's okie bahh. first lesson let us dun study. do self intro. gave us sweets n chocies too. quite nice. but dunno bout her standard lar. Mr Wolfe rawwked. but he chose to go back to canada. aiyar.

then during CLE [character and leadership education. i think.] we had a talk by an alumni. yepp. she got like FULL scholarship to the united states to study lehz. like. tt means she gets accommodation. allowance blah. tt is so super shuang lar. then she was ex-prefect n richardson house captain. veri great achievements loh. sighsigh. sian mu si le. newaes she talked bout her experiences and stuff. includ. time management n priorities. i guess it was quite ok. but alot of ppl were bored. smhow. she wasnt tt bad lar.

frm her like achievements n tt talk. i was juz thinking lar. how to like control n manage myself. right now. like this veri minute. im nt exactly controlling myself. im suposed to do like hw lehz. hm. yah. so i was like thinking. should i b those guai kia. those tt get gudgud grades n stuff. n those nerdd typos. or. try smhow to get 'recognised' or sth. get some leadership position smhow. newaes. there isnt ani much leadership positions currently. i unsuccessfully did nt get nominated for student leader interview. so. poof. there goes the prefect [n perfect] dream. haha. there's still class com for nxt 3 yrs. psl interview at end of nxt yr. n the bigger stuff like house com n all tt. yah. n there's another typo person to be in rg. like. bimbo. u noe. low socks. high skirts. low belts. short tied up hair. high tied up hair typo bimbo. eeew. tt's like no waee. too bimbo. eeeekk. im nvr gonna b one. haha. tt's some lame crap i've typed. go on lar.

recently had all sorta weird dreams. dreams. tt make me confused bout me state now. as in like. i dunno. my dreams are of what i..worry over? or think about. like. juz ytd. i had a couple of dreams. one was like. i spent a whole load of money going to orchard to eat. err. yah. lame rite. but wen i woke up till recess i was seriously thinking tt i spent alot this wk. then i realised. i onli spent like a dollar ytd n tt's the first dae of the wk. lamee. there's lots more weird..n unhappie dreams i guess. but. tt's all private. hahaa. heard frm my el tuition cher tt what u think. or wad u see juz b4 u sleep often gets driven into ur dreams. she dreamt of a cow laying dou shar bao. lol. cute. onli if mine was so simple. these dreams reli get me tired out n confused bout my state. like. yarh. i cant sort myself out. n im reli reli tired loh. sad lar.

eeekk. juz realised tt i hav alot of letter writing to do. like. i hav to reply back to yanshan. amanda oh. steph. shi yin. esther tang n khunnie. n make cards for some babies. as in. some frens. haha. kies. should b quite fun. but. kinda hav too much hw to do those. oO.

feeling like im getting more n more isolated in class. mebe nt in class. but. between casslyn and yanshan. yeah. casslyn is like. sorta quite overpowering. wait. warning again. crap. im going to complain. so. if u dun like nagging complains frm idiotic gurls. stop here. ha. back to the topic. like. she wants to keep yanshan by her side. wants me to do stuff for her. n wants to keep yanshan awae frm me. like. wad right does she hav lar. wen i wan to tok to yanshan. she juz cuts in n give som crap excuse to tok to her. then in the mrt. she alwaes stands between us. on purpose. n then makes yanshan share earphones with her n they talk n talk together on the train. like. like as if. i wasnt there lar. i tried to pretend like i din reli care but. seriously. u 2 dun hav to isolate me like tt la. mebe. mebe its juz tt im a depressed lonely sad dumb ass gal. mebe im juz a quiet introvert to u. but. still. introverts deserve some chance to tok. newaes. i was too disappointed to make ani sounds so i juz moved a few steps awae n concentrated on avril lavigne's songs. yeah. then wen yanshan alighted. casslyn took out her book to read. like. tt's a sign saeing. "IM READING MY BOOK. DUN COME NEAR ME. DO NOT DISTURB ME. I DUN WANNA CARE BOUT U. I DUN WANNA TOK TO U. GET LOST MANN." then she juz ignores me lar. so hu cares. i was wilful lar. she dun care me. i concentrate on avril lavigne. yepp. i kept plaeing over avril lavigne's songs. hmph. cuz they r sad. n loud. yeah man.

i juz am..afraid of tt lonely n isolated feeling lar. like. its reli cold la. n i nvr bring jackets.[er. lame.] so. i dunno. im beginning to not like sch life just as much. pcs was so much better. ppl cared for each other. dhs. might be whole lots better too. my new hist cher was frm there. too. haha. i miss pcs ppl. but. they will nvr eva miss me. cuz. im juz tt ex-classmate of theirs. no longer a part of their heart. i noe im nt popularity gurl but. i reli juz wish to hav tt bit of respect frm ppl. i noe im nt louise or jie [yvonne]. i dun wanna b lonely. but i juz cant seem to overcome tt. ......

biggest achievement for todae? philosophy rep. whee? guess so. philo is nice. (:..

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