JOLYN CY♥
blessed (:

take me to the sky

5:54 PM this post is super crappy n all bout convincing myseld. so. juz forget it if u dun wan to b bored out. yeah. so. yeah.


trying soo hard to forget n forget n forget n forget. but. juz cant..somehow. arh. y am i so dumb. like. its all over le. no hope le. but im juz clinging onto a single thread. its quite obvious tt he doesnt care nemore lar. but im juz so dumb lar. dumb dumb dumb dumbdumb!!!!! urgh. cannot forgive myself. i tried to forget. but it all came back again. i guess i did forget for sometime. wen..wen i was chatting on the phone eva so often with smone else. but. it all came to a stop again. n then. those memories came back. again. y am i so dumb. those 'good old times'? my theme. i'll change it. as long as i hav forgotten. i hope. whywhywhy. y must i be so stupid n stubborn. if. if i could juz let go. mebe life would b alot better. n mebe i wouldnt be so low bat recently. i dunno. arh. muz hypotise myself to forget. but. how? dunno. mebe i'll juz cryy all tt i wan in the cinema with jie they all this fridae. then forget. smhow. i dunno. juz findin meself an excuse to cry. crazy. hm. is it reli tt difficult to forget..jie doesnt even noe if she has forgotten. ha. crazy ler. lemme juz try to convince meself. firstly. he doesnt care about at all. secondly. he doesnt even care to sms or chat online. thirdly. he rather talk with other ppl. fourthly. he gets along so much better with jie than. argh. overall-ly. he juz doesnt care to tok to. so y shouldnt i forget. i wan to forget. but i juz cant. idiot gayy. stupid. why are u making me so despo. im sick n tired of everything alreadi. juz come to my face n juz stab me. pls. then mebe. i'll juz wake up frm this nightmare. u nvr stabbed me frm the front. the back onli. juz hurt me for once in the open. i hate this. stab all u wan. but dun backstab. i cant take it. ahHhHHhh.