JOLYN CY♥
blessed (:

take me to the sky

9:32 PM back home le. so wadd. dunno y. feeling sadd again. smhow. hmm. saw kor in the bus todae. bus 29. so lucky n unlucky. lucky cuz i saw him la. but he so dao. nvr look at me or sae hi. still saw he was staring at me thru sms. haha. bt wen i got off got say byee la. haha. =) he so zai loh. so malu. i nvr tied up my hair in frnt ov 6a-ers. n he saw me. wen i hav tied up hair wearing like long skirt n long sleeve shirt. so ugly. cuz i sick hav to wear long sleeves. cuz i injured n no jeans to wear so wear long skirt juz ncie to cover tt wound. ha. so paiseh. he poor thing la. hav to train so often n so long. >< u muz rest well la u. unlucky cuz i realised tt 29 doesnt go to the sheltered bus stop. had to walk under the rain hm. at least it wasnt as heavy as b4 le la. quite like drizzling.
feelin sadd again. juz like i told kor b4. my hp n lappie makes me sadd. cuz they remind me ov wen i had him [nt kor] and wen he n i chatted happily over msn n sms. but now. he onli daos me. dun care bout me animore. n i deserve all these. all my fault. >< sry. sry. dage.
all i hav now is my little snowglobe. reminding me ov my happy past. n my unhappie present. broken dreamz. ha. my bdae is coming le. all i wish is tt he'll b nice enuff to celeb with me...n get me sth nice n small. tt isnt shared cost with others?..i dunno. tt'll b quite impossible. ha. smhow. how i wish this little wish will come true.
i dunnow ad to do animore. no mood to cont my geog assignment in this sadness. stupid n dumb me. why was i so dumb. smtimes i wish i could tell all tht i feel like tellin to qy. kor. or even errohh. but i nvr dared. they nvr seem to care. smhow. i duno. im crazy. im going crazy.
jie cant come for my bdae celeb. but kor wans to sacrifice his training for it. he's so sweet. but i feel so badd..smhow. crazy. haix. todae alot of crazy orh. haiz. i dunno. stop here le. going to cry. but i wun. cuz errohh said he calling lata. cannot cry. mmhmmm. guaiguai jingyi. dun cry.