Saturday, April 16, 2005
10:11 PM
feelin reli low now. dunno y. dun ask y. i juz feel like this. todae's pinao lesson went on okie bahz? guess nt. cher said tt my 3rd piece. 'columbine dance'. sth liddat. was too..'emotion-less'. like i bottle up alot of stuff inside myself. nt lettin my emotionz show. she asked me to b more open. n tell others about how i feel. if onli i reli reli could hav done tt. i reli reli wish to do tt. but. no one around me seems to reli care bout me. dun even need to mention rgs ppl. i onli hav yan shan as my bex fren bah. n steph n shi yin n kunhang as my gud fren? haz. mebe. as for my ex-classmates..dunno la. even kor doesnt care bout anione but him n his gang in sch ler. 'plainly bcos everybody forget each other liaoz... evertime see each other online like nvr see b4 like that... i dun care liaoz... i got my own gang in sch... and basketball training every wk day...'...haiz. jie lehz? jie has so many problemz on her own. how can i even dare to bother to her with my stuff. tt's so selfish to bother her. dage? he doesnt even tok to xiaomei ler. let alone let xiaomei speak to him.. ann n louise? ann doesnt reli wanna care..louise? i think she sees me more as an enemy than a fren. although she seems so friendly on the outside. 'friendly..'.. haz.... hu else... jon tan? y wuld he give a dam bout me? yarh. sho in total. no one cares about me. so tt means i hav no one to tok bout my probs to. which means. alot of stuff. haiz. dunno lar. dun tink its my prob to care. i guess. my deepest emotion or feelin will owaes remain in my heart. n nvr b told to anione. haz. this iz sho weird. enuff ler la. cont lata. doin sum cher (mr goh, tuition cher) givin me ONLINE..haz. dage sounds so sad in his nickname. haz. no matter wad. dage muz b strong k? mm.!
