Thursday, April 14, 2005
8:34 PM
Hw load getting heavier ler. haz. sad lar. nth much happened todae lohz. onli tt for aesthetics we've gone frm sewing module to d n t. the first lesson's kinda farn lar. but. im dam afraid of the machines la.... hmmz. :/ reli veri scary. dunno y. reminds me of sth horrible. yet i cant rmb wad tt horrible thing iz. weird..... haiz. wad to expect frm me. i dunno y. there's this familar sense of fear. wad do i fear? i fear loneliness....im veri afraid of loneliness. wen i get reli lonely. i feel like cryin. but rmb my promise.. dunno la. my life's so weird n mixed up. >.< ....mm. watched hai tun wan lian ren juz now. quite nice la. does anione noe wad's the song tianbian sang durin the audition?..veri sweet. sth like ' it's a long long journey...blah blah blah.' dun wanna type. veri depressed now. dunno y. newaes. juz wanna thank jon tan arh. yesterdae i was quite 'fedup' sorta with a hw. then he sorta joke n all tt, then tried to help me la. mm. although u dont noe wad uve done. but reli thankz. dunno y. at tt time. i reli felt kinda relaxed or..kinda being an wei-ed. hahaz. thxthx. tt's all i can do to thank u i guess. if onli. if onli my dage would hav done tt. but dage's too buzy in his own world to give a dam bout me ler. haz... thx aniwae. reli reli thx. 'no. i wun cry. i must smile happily.' quoted frm smwhere i cant rmb. but juz rmb this phrase. tt's sth like wad i promised dage. reli feel like breakin it ler. but i wun. for now. >.< haz. feelin sho depressed again. haiz. newaes. kunhang. muz sleep early n rest well k? dunno y u feel sea-sick but..juz rest well la. u need a break smtimes. =) Hahaz. kz. n hwee fang too hor! u juz recovered. muz bao yang urself abit. u look alot paler than u were b4 todae. dunno y la. juz rest well, the both of u. u need it.
